About My Journey

Hi everyone,

My name is Maria and I want to share with you my love story. I'm in love with yoga. And it changed my life. 

Let's start with the beginning. Somewhere around the end of 2016 and the beginning of 2017 I was fed up. Fed up with myself. I was depressed, anxious, insecure, I didn't like to do anything and didn't see the point in doing anything and I was overall unhappy for more than 2 years and that was not the person I dreamed of becoming when I was a kid. I was 25 years old and I didn't see the point in living. It wasn't right for a 25 years old person to be and feel like that and I knew it. I didn't knew how to escape it or fix it. 

Let's go back a little more and let me tell you my life story short. I am a a caucasian female, with a good financial situation, always skinny, always eat what I want when I want and not gaining any weight, pretty tall (1.74 cm), always having people telling me I'm  beautiful, with a great, amazing family. You could say I had a pretty perfect life. 

I don't know exactly when I started spiraling down. I always had a dark side in my head which I sometimes loved to feed thinking it was interesting, rebel, exciting. But I never thought it could turn so bad against me. 

Yes I was a emo kid, a rock lover, a rap lover, festival lover, I went through different stages throughout my adolescence and life as an young adult. Nothing too extreme. 

But then, growing up, life has a twisted way of not being as easy as it was when we were kids. 

I had a bad start of high school, felt pretty outsider, my parents got divorced, I started college and moved to a new big city, had a couple of really bad relationships, finished college and I was left with no direction where to go to next and here I was, at 25, not knowing how to cope with all of that or coping with them very badly. 

I knew that the way I was wasn't ok. Wasn't normal. But I was closing myself off more and more. I didn't wanted or liked to talk to anyone about myself, not even talking about how my day was. I hated going out or having conversations, because it was such a burden for me. I didn't saw the point in doing that, having friends, family, having a job, or waking up in the morning. I cried every day, each time I had a little time for myself or was alone. For months, each time I opened my eyes in the morning they instantly filled with tears. That was my first thought, my first reaction when I woke up. Everyday. 

I was filled with a filling of being useless, I thought I was a terrible person and lots and lots of very dark thoughts which I don't even wan't to remember. 

But on the other side, I felt like I wasn't myself. That person that I became wasn't my true self. I knew myself as a very optimist person, full of life, which made all the people around her to enjoy and love life more and more. 

But I was stuck. I didn't know how to get out of that dark phase. Somewhere deep I knew it was only a phase. Cause I knew how strong I could be. But the voice that was telling me this was a very frail voice, which I could rarely hear and which was buried deep under all the dark voices. 

So I started to look for help. My family and friends weren't an option. I wasn't feeling comfortable speaking to anyone dear to me about my thoughts and feelings. I was feeling very ashamed of them and I was continuously blaming myself. 

I started seeing some psychiatrists and psychologists. It didn't worked. It was an epic fail. I don't know how but I managed to find some really poor psychiatrists and psychologists.

What next then? I always liked Dalai Lama. I didn't knew too much about him, but when I saw or read about him I really loved his way with words. And somehow, I don't remember how, I found out about his and Desmond Tutu's book, The Book of Joy

What a better title? The Book of Joy. Exactly what I was looking for. And it truly was. 

It totally changed my mind set, through it I discovered meditation, mindfulness, I learned about compassion, about coping with grief, anger, injustice, frustration, self-blame and I discovered yoga. It is not a book about yoga. It is a book about life. They talk about all religions and spiritual movements, but yoga caught my eye. It always seemed to me a little weird this yoga, but in the same time I could see or better said, I could sense that a deep level of spirituality was included in this thing called yoga. 

So I started practicing. Physical practice - the asanas. I really needed to do some physical exercises too, cause I was sitting on a chair all day long at the office. I had a pretty bad pain in my back and I didn't had any muscle tone, if I went up the stairs for 4 floors I would lose my breath. So it was excellent. But from my first practice I understood that yoga it's not about the asanas, it's not about staying or mastering a pose. It much more than that and the physical practice was only a tool to help you on and to facilitate your journey to yourself. 

In that moment I felt in love. And I remained in love with yoga and I became more and more in love with it with every practice, with every book on yoga that I read, with every yoga class that I took, with every yogic experience that I had. 

Since that moment, I changed and grew. I changed my lifestyle, I changed my daily routine, I changed my mindset, my feelings, my emotions, the way that I cope with everything in life, I changed my job and I changed my path. I keep on changing myself, day by day, minute by minute, it is a continuous battle.  And after a year and a half of doing yoga, I also found a very good psychologist which I work with now. 

In April 2019 I went for the Journey of my life, a six weeks trip to Rishikesh, India, the birthplace of Yoga to learn, transform, evolve and transcend. I dived deep into the Himalayan ancient teachings and I could say I was reborn. I discovered an entire different part of yoga, which made me love even more yoga. 

So now, allow me to present you yoga through my eyes, let me take you on a journey to myself, to yoga, to yourself. 

Yoga & All

Certifications

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  • Indian Yoga 200 hr TTC - Fitness Scandinavia - Bucharest 2018

  • Ashtanga Yoga Workshop - Kino MacGregor - Budapest June 2018

  • Ashtanga Yoga Mysore - Sharath Jois - Madrid September 2018

  • Ashtanga Workshop - Ty Landrum - Bucharest 2018

  • Nutritionist Technician - Fitness Scandinavia - Bucharest 2019

  • The Power of Awareness - Jack Kornfield & Tara Brach  - online 2019

  • 50 hr Ashtanga Yoga- Arhanta Ashram - Neatherlands February - March 2019

  • 50 hr Yin Yoga - Arhanta Ashram - Neatherlands March 2019

  • 85 hr Prenatal - Sattva Yoga Academy - Rishikesh April 2019

  • 300 hr TTC - Sattva Yoga Academy - Rishikesh April-May 2019

  • Applied Anatomy and Physiology Yoga with Simon Borg-Olivier - online 2019

  • Rainbow Yoga Kids 95 hr - Online - 2020

  • International Yoga Festival - Parmarth Niketan Ashram - Rishikesh - March 2020:

    • Blossoming Heart - Clasical Kundalini Yoga - Yogirishi Vishvketu

    • Soul Sweat - Dana Flynn

    • Cosmic Prana, Cosmic Self - Anand Mehrotra

    • Original Chen Style T'ai Chi - Sensei Sandeep Desai

    • Cleansing the Window of Perception - Gurmukh Kaur Khalsa

    • Where Art Meets Science - Dr Bruce Lipton & Prince EA

    • Living as a Visionary - Anand Mehrotra

    • Sufi Love Meditation - Mert Guler

    • Touch: A Universal Human Language - Dr Eden Goldman

    • Spiritual Dream Boarding - Charting Your Course for a Divine Tomorrow - Swami Adityananda Saraswati

    • Appreciation - The Highest Meditation in the Aquarian Age - Gurmukh Kaur Khalsa

    • Indian Classical Dance Workshop - Nrityavali

    • Inversion Workshop - Katie B. Happy

    • Mandala Flow - Rohini Manohar

    • Mythic Yoga Flow: Myth, Mantra, Mudra & Magic - Sianna Sherman

    • Look Healthy and Be Pain-Free with Super Foods - Dr. G.S. Gupta

    • Awaken Kundalini - Kia Miller

    • Accessing the Flow of Kundalini - Anand Mehrotra

    • The Importance of Detoxification in the Modern World - Dr. Alejandro Junger

  • Bhagvad Gita Supreme Wisdom for Living Enlightenment with Anand Mehrotra - Sattva Yoga Academy Online, May 2020 - 138 hr YACEP

Bucharest, Romania

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